Today is Thanksgiving Monday and this weekend I have been thinking a lot about all the blessings in my life. Just over 7 years ago I seriously doubted I'd ever be a mother. It was just after Thanksgiving in 2002 we adopted our son, Ethan. Then Thanksgiving of 2005 was my due date with Mary and I delivered her a week later. And now, as I type this on the laptop, my belly is moving and shifting in front of me...how odd a sensation it is! And as freaked out as I am about having another baby at 37, I am also absolutely in awe. I never ever thought I'd be lucky enough to experience pregnancy again...
However, in this blissful state of daydreaming about a newborn again, the panic starts to creep in...this morning it started at 5:00 am and never left...I figure I might as well get up and get some things *done*. I was on a frenzy. Maybe it's nesting. Maybe it's feeling like time is running out. Maybe it's knowing that my body isn't going to be this mobile much longer...
I started cleaning out and organizing my kitchen cupboards. Then it was getting the winter clothes, scarves, etc. out of storage and doing four loads of laundry. In the meantime, I threw a chicken in the crockpot, made a curried sweet potato soup from scratch and cleaned out the refrigerator. Add to that cleaning out my purse, getting the recycling and garbage ready and cleaning our laundry room and I was/am EXHAUSTED. Did I mention all of this was accomplished by 9am?!
So I am now sitting here with my feet up hoping I get a second wind today. There still feels like there is so much to do to get ready for the big day...8 weeks to go!
However, in this blissful state of daydreaming about a newborn again, the panic starts to creep in...this morning it started at 5:00 am and never left...I figure I might as well get up and get some things *done*. I was on a frenzy. Maybe it's nesting. Maybe it's feeling like time is running out. Maybe it's knowing that my body isn't going to be this mobile much longer...
I started cleaning out and organizing my kitchen cupboards. Then it was getting the winter clothes, scarves, etc. out of storage and doing four loads of laundry. In the meantime, I threw a chicken in the crockpot, made a curried sweet potato soup from scratch and cleaned out the refrigerator. Add to that cleaning out my purse, getting the recycling and garbage ready and cleaning our laundry room and I was/am EXHAUSTED. Did I mention all of this was accomplished by 9am?!
So I am now sitting here with my feet up hoping I get a second wind today. There still feels like there is so much to do to get ready for the big day...8 weeks to go!
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